never wote in this for a while...
well i think im good ... i think.. i happy to be home and very glad i have peace within myself now...
ok .. im bored and had a million popcicals... and yeah.. i was sopose to post my work on here but theres alot to write ya know.. mmmk..i think i need to go pee.. later...haha jk
ok peace

well im leaving on saturday to anchorage for the rest of the year for family problems.. so yeah im bummed and ill miss some people and what not.. so yeah... im bored and mr iverson said this was a waste of time writting on here this period. which is not....
well i think i better get off...

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ME AND MY BUG DURING THE NEW YEAR...
WE WATCH FIRERWORKS AND WIDE AWAKE AFTER 2 I THINK.. OR 3 I DONT REMEMBER<<

"hi guys"
what up yo!!!
gosh
man i cant wait till next month im gonna go home and see my fam..
ahhh

man

44 day till i go man...
ahhh the showers..

well ok
what to write.
ummmm
oh this week is culture week..haha and some kids are here from my town. anchorage
yeah im making a quspaq which mean a traditional dressy shirt.
and yeah
it the color red but i wanted pink.
gosh..
oh and my favorite color is pink and all pastel colors...
haha
but yeah
ok later i have to go yo..
later homes

last week people came to the island to do some nyo stuff (Native Youth Olympics ) well during the week end we had a steller time ridding around with a sled attached to a snowmachine. we went riddin on bumps and hit some friggin big ones..
man i got some bruises all over my body and it was cool.
ohh and that was the best because all i do is get up go to school do work then go home take a nap for 20 min, eat dinner wait like 2 hrs then go out for like 2 hrs.....lame
haha
but that day was awsome.


well today i friday and it maybe will be a good day..
i cant wait till my box comes...
yes...
well life in the vill is ok i guess ..
maybe ill be back for next semester..
just maybe


later i have to get back to work for those credits yo..!

hmmm... what to write about. hey yeah hey i forgot..ummmm oh yea yesterday i had a cigarette- writes jon jon...

hearts, stars horseshoes, clovers and blue moons
happy as day
glad at night
watching the sunset
reading upside down
slurping some fuzzy liquid
magically delicious
slipping slurping
a wish
a dream
a clap away
of making a choice

friday

hey its friday and im bored...
oh and the nyo people are coming
man im bored in study hall
so yeah i think i better go..
ok later
yo
bye bye

the poem thingy outside

crunchy, vividly white
flakes of snow gliding down
numb and cold from
the ocean breeze
fresh flakes falling every second
creating new piles of hills
scattered across town
creaky old houses fill the spaces between
the new
rustling old grass swooshing
to the beat of the wind
cold but warm
hair flowing
knees knocking
and the ice flows

frightened, sweaty, and clashing upon my knees.
i stare at the bright lights, gulping and gripping the mic.
over and over i think ill do alright.
i open my mouth to the open beat.
i sing out words and smile.
i look confedent and sure..
but inside i have an urge to over come this fear this complicating emotion that stage fright i have bundled and stored away..
(to be continued)

over the week i had many hills..
i have no clue what to do in these situations.
i have covered my feelings and hide under a tall willow tree.
i havedug deep just to cover it up all again
the hill for my self is a sign of dissapointment
a struggle with in my self.
feelings are numb and cant eascape. yet i have joy and happiness with in my self but the courage the climb those hill creates conflict and striff.
to be happy mean to have joy that happiness builds.
confusion is a mind a way from the winds

my mother so kind

mary

my mother,
my sheild,
my back,
and my
all..

my mother mary is kind and bold.
over the years i have taken advantage of her but i have now realized how much she has done for me. she is my all. she makes me full of joy way down in my heart and soul.
i have a new place in my heart where i keep her love placed on a platter and watch every second pass by. mary has tought me to think with my mind and dont let any one treat you like a nothing. but dont let the anger take place of where joy is placed. so i laugh to be joyful. and hold my head high though tough times.

mary is a dove in my soul and a beauty to all things. strong among storms and a feather twards conflict. i love my mom and care for her so, to not have her love would be a burden to my heart.

a dove that floted and withstands the storm i love mary my mom my friend.

to be gone would break my heart, to not have a love so pure so white. a joyess time, a day gone by, where i think of her as a time that never dies.
her love is pure, her joy so fine, a love like that,
that ill never forget what she has done to to improve my life.

blah blah the reseach paper..

My research paper

For my research paper I decided to choose diets/ programs that were totally opposite from each other. One of the first would be the Atkins diet, then the vegetarian life style, and the curves program. I received me information on the Internet and knowledge I have from previous classes.

The first diet was sort of strange, its high in protein, low in fat, low carbohydrates and its called the Atkins diet. The person may have to take vitamins and minerals for the nutritional value the diet may no give. It has no planned exercise routine; it suggests the person to do aerobic walking and is not very concentrated about the hard-core work out. The diet may cost a little more than regular diets because it has no trans fat, low sugar, high protein and fiber. The downfall about this particular diet is that, the person can’t eat whatever they want. Overall this diet is not very safe and it is difficult eating out at restaurants. It is a risky diet, is not safe which can lead to heart disease.

A vegetarians diet was a second choice of mine. Its just not a diet, it’s a life style which a vegetarian only eats veggies and soy based proteins. In order to get all the nutrition they need, they have to substitute all protein (which they would get from meat) with vitamins or soy. This life style/ diet doesn’t require exercise but it does recommend for a healthier experience. This diet isn’t healthy unless the person takes very good care of the amount vitamins or nutrition. Also the restaurants aren’t always veggie friendly. If it were me, I wouldn’t even think of giving up my meat.

Last but not least, the Cuves program and is most popular among American woman. Curves isn’t really a diet, is rather a plan to guide a person can have a certain amount food or not. There is not a strict eating plan and you have to pay for 30 minutes a day exercise at the facility at your own speed. The activities concentrate on having fun. This plan has a manageable cost for an average working customer. The faculties are located all over the United States. So over this entire program is safe and easy to manage.

After all that research I would recommend a diet to what fits the cost, time and energy of the person. It may have a great impact towards the life a person wants and feels. So all the diets/ services are all different and unique from each other. So look at your life style, nutritional goals, food, and activity preference.

a new experence

Moving to anchorage... i had no idea how difficalt it would be to move there without planning to whole thing. i was 12 when we became homless. It felt weird asking people for help but luckly we stayed at a safe place.i wasnt "like oh my gosh were homless and have to stay under a box" it was more like being staying at my sisters place (which i will tell later on). Then after couple of months we stayed at "Safe Harbor" which was ok i guess. to tell you i had to attend middle school "alone" with no friends and start fresh so that was a good thing. i had it good compared others i guess.

i had learned a lot and still more to say but for now hold on a it will get better.....

a nest....

life goes, that we may consider to grow up and leave the nest.
sadly im 18 and may have to be held another year so thats a bummer. Living in the nest is quite exitting to be truly honist. my sanctuary is where i have a place to my own. A bed, t.v, grub, and my cell phone. Shelterd from harm, i am free from earning rent and can spend my HARD earnigs on pricless stuff. To be experence a place is awsome. To know i have a person to lean on.
my mom is the person i have trusted since i can remember.
She has held on to my hand if i have ever slipped or fell.
Well is it sad that i may not want to leave THE NEST?
IS IT FAIR THAT I HAVE TO GROW-UP?
In other words i want to be a child living in the nest and saty there until im ready.

my life of favorites

-hair dye...
-music....
-family..
mom
dad
glenna
micah
warren
brenda
inez
audrey
tyler
tj
most of all lil showalter aka stinky
-so yeah pretty boring eh..?
-sadly i luv to sing in the shower
-i luv to watch lil babies so yeah thats about it..

about me
i have many thoughts about what ifs...
and i have many complications with in family.(who hasnt)
i luv singing
i luv dying my hair..
so far i have died my hair all the colors exept purple
and have no opportunity to dye it again until i get back to anchorage..
(lame)
wel yeah im outgoing and have alot of fun laughing about dumb stuff.
ex: billabong---- qupang (quuu- baung)
haha
well yeah ilive in anchorage but attending nunivak school
wich is ok..
but i miss the city life.
the late nights the early mornings sooo
i have alot of fun
in the village i have to keep my head high and lift my spirits high..
man ythingss happen but what the hay have fun,,
about that singing i have fun doing it..
i think that i need to put god first before i start singing again..
latly i have been having trouble dealing with a death and dont have the feeliing i ussed to have.
i sang at his funeral and cant imagine that hes gone..
but i have faith he is having a blast in heaven...
over all i have fun when im down not the alcohalic kind but the lauging it out instead of crying.

well i think i said too much now ..
until then later

moving anywhere

DRAMA......
Moving is such a hasle, as you can see its such drama...
BOXES....
BAGGS...
TAPE.....

PLACES.....
BETHEL...
MEKORYUK...
BETHEL..TALOR COURT
ANCHORAGE..
-HOMELESS..
-SISTERS PLACE...
-BAXTER ROAD...
-LILY ST


SO BASICLY
IM A PERSON WHO HAS A BUNCH OF BOXES STACKED UP NOT YET READY TO UNPACK.....